why is it so hard to find what matter to you?
“If you haven’t found it yet, keep looking. And that is true for your work as it is for your lovers. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don’t settle” – Steve Jobs, 2005 Stanford University.
If you think that you will find what matter for you in a second like being hitting by a lighting you are most probably wrong. Finding what matter is a question of time and it takes some trials before ultimately finding it. You have to stay focus and consistent to do what you think is right until you feel it closer and closer.
I remember myself at 16 no going anywhere because what I was doing was not the right thing. I was at school, not successful, very popular; wearing a daily costume… bottom line I was totally lost. I decided to drop school one day after many failures without knowing what I will do next. I was lucky enough to have a father that support me and helped me to find my way. What mattered to me was in front of me for a decade without I notified it, I was spending most of my time in front of it, I was good at it, computers. So I decided to start a computing school. After one year and half the same schema started again, I was not in love with what I was doing so I drop this school too.
I was time for me to work and try earning money; I was at the time working in “half time” (12 hours per day) in an internet coffee. That gave me a lot of experience, I haven’t been paid from the day I start until the day the company bankrupt, I was working after work on my own to do freelance to develop website and in others less ethical jobs. The day this company bankrupt I decided to move on and to try something else. I was tired to stay in front of a computer for 18 hours per days and earning no money at all. So I quit on what mattered to me.
I created a “communication” company; basically we were 3 friends who didn’t know what to do and with a lot of free time. We start knocking at the door of shop to ask them if they wanted our services. Our pitch was ridicule, it was obvious that we didn’t know what we were doing but we tried for 8 months. Finally I discover that both of my friends were not able to wake up before 3pm to start working and we all decided to stop again.
I was time for me to focus again on my first love, computers. I had a job interview in the company I am working now to be a network administrator in part-time as an intern. I said “yes” and I try since to make everything possible to make my next day happen because there is nothing better than doing what you love.
